Life is beautiful

hehez. got back my very last paper today. failed! by 2 marks. but guess wad... i'm actually the most pleased with this paper. hahaz. cuz i was expected like possible to get from 0 to 30+ marks. so yupz. overall fmaths still the lousiest but manage a c thanks to that 'failed' paper. to be exact fmaths is one of my best and also the worst paper. hmz. this time's prelims... horrible results. its disappointing that u get so low despite working so hard for it. but aniwaes, it has stopped bothering me already. ohyarx. mrs ong was super farnie. while we were doing work she suddenly juz sat down at the empty chair beside me and started asking me about my chem paper 1. as usual... other pple had paper 1 pulling it up... mine pulled the whole subject down! she was saying if only i did as average as the rest for paper 1... i would have done quite well. oh wells. wad to do. practice lorx.

aniwaes, i'm starting studying today =) yesh finally. i've rested enough. re-charged. and all ready to face the whole battle again. its maths mock paper 2 tomorrow... make sure i get what i want. chem paper 3 next week. fmaths paper 2 next friday...

aniwae, yarx. happy belated birthday amelia! tt was like how long ago... and shoots i promised her a present since i've got more time to buy than during prelims... and somebody requested for Twins stuff! shoots shouldn't have mentioned about presents... hahaz just joking. where on earth do they sell things tt have tt 2 pretty gal's faces on them? hahaz.

aniwae, borrowed chem tys from yuqian today...brand new de... thanks gal... though stupidly we didn't use it in the end. but aniwae, hahaz i've finally learnt to use tt kind of turning lock... i was so amazed.

hmz... caught in the rain today. forgot to bring umbrella... thot i could escape the rain... but the moment i alighted from the bus it started to drizzle... shucks. got wet. reminds me of yesterday... met claire on the mrt.. yarx supposed to play badminton with her yesterday afternoon...almost did... but. ok it was my fault... i was too tired.. sad... and lazy to play. the drizzle made it worst. felt quite bad... promised her i'll play with her 2 years ago! ok. i'm horrible at promises.. i always break them. not all though. but yarx. aniwaes, pon the afternoon fmaths lecture on graphic calculator heh.

looking forward to this sunday when i can go out with ruaners =) hahaz. we really going national library to study? thot kiwi wanted to 'play'... but turns out to be a studying session . hahaz. i bet we're gonna talk most of the time =p wadeva.... i just want to step foot in there and tour around! hahaz.

hez... promos are here... good luck my frenz. pls work hard and dun get... the new H1 H2 thingy sure sux!

wahh. feel so lucky these days when i go on msn. cuz i never fail to have 2 buds accompanying me online =) hahaz. and we have been mad with all these msn icons.. driving some pple to nuts.

oh yea. sis found her new idol... and tts mayday... so like the songs playing on my speaker are all from mayday's. ok lahz not bad.

aniwae, wahhh.... got back 5 papers today. towards some... quite satisfied cuz i jumped grades. but for maths... it shouldn't be tt way! nvm. i'll work doubly hard ok? yea i promise. juz to see tt same excitement from u again =) aniwae, while i got back my fmaths today... ms goh came up to our row and sat herself next to me and started talking... was saying i didn't do too bad this paper.. and i told her i'm gonna fail paper 2.. so she asked which part? the front part ah... i was like no.. the whole paper.. including ur stats. hahahaz. she was like 'aiyo cham'. ok. i havent cham yet she cham for me! hahaz. ok. she muz be disappointed to noe tt i screw up my stats as well.

aniwae, we were all shaking our heads when the indian scholars were like constantly talking to the teachers about their exam papers... hahaz. ivan was commenting... aiyo so greedy.. so much already still want more.. hahaz. as usual, kanav the smartest this time round i expect. he got 98.5 for fmaths! though the other indian scholars got As as well but their As were stark contrast as compared to his... hm. then we were like commenting... aiyo how careless... 3 half marks also can lose! hahah. especially when he completed his paper in 1.5 hours and have 1.5 left to check lahz. hahaz. ok. nvm. chris wasn't bad too... wrong should say chris was good too... 96.

hmz. went for lunch at northpt with nayling after school today. then walked ard. though theres nothing much to see.. ohya. hahaz. after reading my msg to ivan in tt envelope, he finally remembered he owed my an ice-cream!! hahaz. cuz i was screaming in tt paper.. my ice-cream! and so happen we were walking out of sch towards the mrt together... and he almost wanted to stop and buy from the ice-cream man.. but being nice me... obviously i dun extort pple for ice-cream cuz of 3 pieces of test-pad papers haha. aniwae, nayling was joking.. shes got a date with me.. no time for ur ice-cream. hahaaha.

okies. so much for 'fun'. its back to school. mock exams are coming soon again. yupz. time i pull up my sock. kaes. rite. i must peak at the next round of exams. =) shall treat the horrible results as a punishment for not studying hard enuff. yea.

oh but then.. i musn't forget to play for this 2 weeks... hahaha. so disappointing, sis couldn't find the vcds at any shop. nvm. maybe its implying tt i should cut down on my entertainment time!

today: woke up at 1pm. ate lunch. played guzheng. read newspapers. slack. used pc. went to sleep at 3pm. woke up at 5pm. did mechanics questions from yesterday's papers. got scolded crazy by rf. slack on the pc again. 7pm show. ate dinner. played the organ. bathed. now pc.

yesh. so boring. so i decided to touch yesterday's paper... cuz i really dunnoe wad to do... its horrible trying to think of wad to do. then luckily i came online again.. cuz i'm like multi-tasking! hahaz. talking to shuxuan ngian soph(but she left) olivia and dawn(thru sms) at the same time! and trying to read tt farnie journal tt soph recommended.. which was recommended by rf...http://www.funbrain.com/journal/Journal.html?ThisMonth=9&ThisDay=24&ThisJournalDay=1&ThisPage=10 and trying to read the jokes tt rf sent to my mail. muahah. okies. too busy now. =)

wahhh fail le fail le. fmaths paper 2 fail le. its confirmed fail ok. no matter how hard i study i still can do the qns haha... ok i admit i didn't practice enuff. ok. so now my no1 task. is to buck up on stupid fmaths. i must change my weakest subject into a strong subject!!!! yikes. shall do the whole paper again.

aniwae... i havent been happy for a long long time le... cuz they can make me forget about all the horrible stuffs... the exams.. the difficult things... and they are.... =)=)=)=) yupz. went out with rf soph oli and jo straight after fmaths. though fmaths have definitely pulled my mood down by then... u noe wad i mean. yupz. luckily i dily daly( is tt how u spell?) after the test... and thank goodness they took the wrong direction hahaz... tt we got to take the same train!!! went causeway point and jo was already there awaiting us =) so went walking ard... talked a lot.. had lunch at the foodcourt... and hahaz.. interesting: theres a 'woman' selling cosmetics at esprit who is actually a guy. shocking... cuz he does look pretty... tts if u cover ur ears... and juz dont observe too closely! muahah. couldn't finish lunch. hm... then we were trying very hard to keep jo away from tt part of the korean show tt was playing in the vcd shop hahaha... sommore the most exciting part. hahaz. i guess she juz have to wait a long long time to finish the show... if possible ONE SHOULD NOT EVEN START ON TT SHOW! my mum is addicted to it... and its her 3rd time watching the weekly played one. gosh.

ohyesh. and olivia finally appeared!!! goodness... long straight rebonded hair... so different! hahaz. so cute. first time seeing her in long hair... and off we went to..... joanna's house! hehe.. cool manz. went up there and slack! talk talk talk... we have never ending things to talk about... and can totally forget about the time and the purpose for going her house hahaz. ok... played badminton at the carpark =) its been a v.v.v.long time since i last pe-ed. but aniwae, tts our common 'sport' among us... they are my badminton-mates. its always so much full of laughter playing together =) really remind me of the good old days.... hahaz. being lousy 'sporting' person i was slacking a lot hahaha.... and eventually we all sat down to talk instead.. hahaz. i guess talking is still the best sport 4 us... such conversations are hard to find these days... talk talk talk... went back to the house and still talk n talk n talk... hahahz. before we realise... oh dear 5.30 le... we need to eat so tt we can rush home to watch tt dumb dumb dragon show muahah. and for goodness sake.. yao lie sux ok. hahaha... *rf & oli bashing me up* i cant believe tt olivia's class is even divided into the the 'yaolie' and 'libin' group hahahaz.

then off to dinner at causeway pt again.. this time eating at pastamania. yum yum. forgot the name of the pasta i ordered. we were like tasting each others speciality... and oh gosh. we got dessert treats from joanna's dad! thx uncle. ok he wasn't present. but yarx. ahhh... so jo ordered for us tiramisu and some strawberry thingy chocolate mousse some coffe thingy and again we were like tasting and tasting hahahaz. really yummy. then by the time we left... oops 6.45. hahahz show starting in 15mins. poor olivia... muz have missed about 45 mins of the show...
haiz... had a really really great day today. thx gals. *hugs* muacks. how i wish.....

aniwae, wads with the dragon show? every1's watching! muahaha... even tt dumb dumb sugar... she msges me now and then to ask me why the dragon do this.. how come never die... wads the moral of the story... wad happens next. hahaz. ok so whens my next outing? hahaz. with co peeps this time. and becca suggests we go to the national library to walk walk and talk... hahz. i dun mind. have yet to be at the mega place!

hm. should be back to studying soon again. pple pls remind me to study or i'll fail. i guess i need some pushing. maybe i suggest mum should limit my entertainment time each day... and nag at me to STUDY.. instead of tempting me of tv shows... like wad she do so often... a typical thing she does: 'hey mei come come see.... got XXX acting.... issit her hur?' or else it would be: 'hey Xo'clock got show leh... why never on.. this one nice to see..' etc etc. hahahaz. sounds like many pple would wish their mums are like tt... hhaha perhaps i'm juz weird. at least till A's are over?

thot i got many more things to blog about... but so much things tt i really forgot... hahaz. okies. sis needs this pc. shall go off.. and.... not study though... change pc. =)

7 down. 1 to go =)
looking forward to... friday.

yeahz! muahaha. 1 week of exams over. 4 down, 4 to go. i'm feeling quite happy. today was fmaths paper1. wah... i'm 100% sure i'll pass paper 1! managed to do linear algebra and vectors! so proud of myself.. hm ok must admit they were easy. then overall got some difficult ones.

i'm super tired!! sleeping for 4+hours each nite is taking away my energy. for the 1st day of exam still ok 2nd still can tahan 3rd a bit tired 4th day... i need to sleep! and since i've been working so hard for these past days i shall reward myself with using the pc and taking a long nap later! then shall start on stats again.. and maybe mechanics... it wont be too long before i'm being put down by next week's papers...

i think my life has been full of studying only... such that during wendnesday's chemistry paper i got a shock when i read the date 14 September. really shocked. cuz the next day (yesterday) was to be my brother's birthday. totally lost count of date.. aniwae, this is the first year we did not celebrate. no cakes... no cakes for ani of our birthdays this year. blowing of candles not allowed..no birthday songs. but surely presents are not to be missed out =) with sista around, presents can never get cheaper. hahaz.

aniwae back to the exam papers. physics paper2 was hard. chem p3 was doable but... i forgot many things tt had to be memorised. maths was challenging.. hope still can do well.

oooo lingling jie jie is gonna deliver her baby in oct! and she promised to msg me when she deliver... i'm like huh? how? u're in the labour room.. hahahz.

aniwae, looking forward to next friday... i mean the afternoon =)

s.c.r.e.a.m.
s.t.r.e.s.s.
p.r.e.l.i.m.s.s.u.x.

Happy Birthday ShuHui =)

ayes. natasha has flown back to london. and i havent got a chance to talk to her over the fone. =(
aniwae, yikes. wednesday is ending... i've done mostly on linear algebra today only... tts like so many more fm chapters to do. shoots!

aniwae, theres so much on the tv shows to talk about hahaha... rf will noe wad i'm talking about =) a pity its in the midst of prelims...

ahhhh.... my cai cai is no 8 now!!!! hes losing! hahaz. but theres this other doggie tts so cute! one of the highest... but the dog with the highest no of votes 1 not cute at all lehx. hm... pple muz help me vote for cai cai for being dog of the month at www.cesar.com.sg !!!!! hahahaz.

ayez. exactly 1 week to maths prelims! muaha. time is running out. but i'm still taking things so easily... hahaz.

aniwae, was browsing thru some blogs.. then some were talking about shows! yar.. at this time i'm still quite concerned about wad entertainment there is.. yupz. aniwae, the vampire show is back! yeaz. i'll wait till half of the show then i'll watch again haaha.. and hopefully by then its already after A's? hm.. aniwae, shooots... this song has been stuck in my head for a very long time.. coco lee's bei ai de nu ren... and this kelly's own song she composed... and some others cuz it has been playing on this pc like everyday. aniwae, playing the guitar is quite fun... except i cant get used to 6 strings... and i dunnoe the chords.

freaking warm. lets see... i've done physic paper2. tts it. hahaz. cool. looks like my goal of finishing the whole book of prelim papers will not materialise. hm. nvm. dun think it'll hurt doing prelim papers for A'levels... though some pple mite think i'm nuts.

poor caicai... has been feeling rather pain... and down. tt sian sian look on his face... so cute. haha. kaez. cuz hes on e-collar. poor boy.

study study. focus focus focus. jiayou jiayou. =) happy mugging peeps. we'll pull thru.

hehe. stealing a little time off my studying... juz want to ask every1... go to www.cesar.com.sg and help vote for CAI CAI to be the Dog of the Month!! hahaz... hes in the 3rd place now... nono... cannot cannot... i muz make sure he comes in first hehe... so cute.

aniwae sis bought a guitar! wow. its so light... even lighter than my zhongruan. cool.

muz vote for cai cai ok... hahah thanks!

When You Believe
By: Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey

Many nights we prayed,
with no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song,
we barely understood
Now we are not afraid,
although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
before we knew we could

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles, you can achieve,
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear,
when prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds,
too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here,
my heart so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words,
I'd never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles, you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way safe through the rain
A small but still resilient voice
Says help is very near

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe, just believe
You will when you believe

Happy Birthday Yuqian =)

yeps. gp is over. quite relieved. though i thinki wont do well in this paper. aniwae, the war has begun. i'm gonna make it.

was still watching superstar yesterday though. results quite expected but aniwae kelly sang so beautifully =) becca was commenting tt whichever ways, as in whoever who won, it wont matter too much also... cuz if kelly won, she'll be happy... and if weilian won, she got something to write in her gp! hahaha... like erm, the first ever blind singaporean to become successful in the entertainment industry... tts if its related at all to the topic. going home with becca has always been great. =)

was too busy with stuff tt i almost forgotten some1's birthday... have been forgetting about pple's bdaes these days... wad to do. too immersed in studies hahaha.. so we had a mini gathering outside choir room this morning... with the other ruanz and an extra cello.

ohya. did i mention before. aj finally installed air-conditioners in the hall! hm... and its freaking cold. i better prepare a thicker jacket to wear for the rest of the exams. my fingers were almost stuck.

boring. what i'm typing is out of boredom... should hit the books. btw, can some1 tell me how to get rid of those irritating messages from friendster to inform XXX has updated his/her blog? its super irritating.